lying to myself

sorry wiffey, forgot to post , it's been a long time,
hope ur dooing good.
well, me i'm fine with life ,
everthing is not so bad,
living wih noo drama, no shiets .
still, idk why , when i see his name, my heart still shakes a bit
idk if its because i liked him as friend and now lost him or i loved him,
but yknow, when i tell myself that i don't like someone,
i can even lie to myself and convince myself that i don't
maybe cuz i can make my brain control my feelings,
but guess it's the best solution i can find,
because i'm not courageous enough for love, not like you
i can't stand it when it hurts. and guess it still hurts. just less.
love is not for me, i'm not strong enough for it.
rollercoaster makes me sick, makes me cry, i cried too much for others.
it might be boring these days, but at least, it's the longest time in these 2 years i haven't cried. guess it means it's all good. ights?

cus everything happens for a reason

i can't sleep right now, i'm just really sad
when i thought he was the one all along.. i was really wrong
why am i so stupid? i just feel like crying
it's like there is a knife in my heart right now
everything is going bad
people around us are seperating
nothing last forever ; i understand now
i just feel really sad , why can't i cry

wifey i really need to talk to you but i just don't know to say it
it's like there is a lot of thing i want to say but it just won't come out
because maybe i did really love him for a second but at the end he just kept hurting me
with his actions , but one day he'll realize that he did a mistake .. of letting me go
i just dont want to think about boys really i don't
most of them are all jerk

thank god i still have you <3

it's not all about love ( but depends? )

long time no post ;x
i wanted to cheeer wifey about yknowhat & yknowho (;
and you certainly don't have to worry about me,
cuz i feel perfectly fine now , enjoy singleness hehe 8)
so ya, it's so beautiful um these days ;D woooot
fck awkward, got no love but happy nway, i'm proud muahaha
&
tmr is school day, indeed you are the only person who's excited haha
NWAY. HOPE ITS GONNA GET BETTER& BETTER ~
and believe me, it will.
love you always wifeeey (L)

-steph

happy happy me

it was valentine's day like two days ago , wasn't it fun?
single single single but the truth is i kinda enjoy that special day
because i spend it with a lot of people that i love and this is what i really like about it
we laugh like crazy , like everyday during lunch time
i know why i'm so happy, because i'm always excited about lunch time
is the only time were i can laugh as much as i can and that i won't care about people for a while
and stick the people that i love <3 you guys are really special to me
and i don't want to lose you guys , i smile everyday now because it'll be a waisted day if we don't smile
BE HAPPY IS THE KEY

and i can forget about boys even if they are kinda a big part of my life
my feelings are confused right now because of a lot of shit
let's talk about them later on MSN LOLOL (:
i love you wifey and i wish you the best of luck as always
you'll find your prince that is going to love you <3

liifee. wooot

yeesh, happy new year too ;D
haha, youre so smart ! (;
yeeah. life is lovely . would be nicer if we didn't have so much exams tho.
but HEELLA YEAH. TMR IS FRIDAAAAAAAAAY.
YKNOW WHAT IT IS (BLACK N YELLOW BLACK N YELLOW..no)
AFTER FRIDAY IS SATURDAY woot wooot . ~
& duunno . just knew that there's a lot of stuuff going about me on my back ,
& i don't even know myself. crazy how rumour can turn into eh! haha
& feels kindaa ... , when you know someone is leaving you. ummm :/
when u feel that spaces growing , & yah, i just expected it to happen. so no suprise.

but if it's not wifey ,DO I CARE? . NO . WOOOOOOOOOOT ;D

smille. today is so fck effin beautiful . so is tmr 8D
lovee (L)

wifeey
-steph

haha (: we wish us the best of luck LOLOL
but anywho , hope it's gonna be tmr you know
it's gonna be chinese new year and MONEY MONEY
who doesn't love money

if i have to choose a guy or 1000$
sorry BOY . cus we don't want to get hurt
and instead i can go shoopping and buy new pair of uggs and stuff <3

i just dont give a fuck , let's have fun and enjoy life !
babyyy i like it.

okiie ;D - well, there's this guy ...

okaai okaai, there' s lot of stuff going through
and they are all kinddaa *hehe ;D great ~
i'm so not used to it, feels weird to not be down haha
buuut there are guys in my minds. not the boyfriend type tho ;x
some people just made me feel great and had fun.
so yknoooooooow .. lavie est beeeeeelle wooot 8D( ..for now)

i don't like feeling high, cuz yknow, it hurts when you fall down :/
soo, bleeeh . that's effin life , rollercoaster. sigh but
I ENJOY MY BEAUTIFUL DAYS HAHA~ FLYYYYY LIIKE A G6 WOOOT
WHAT A GREAT WEATHER HAHA (i know it's snowing like hell outside 8) )
weell well, maybe your prince is gonna arrive soon,
be prepared ar! (; im gonna so happy if you get a lil chumchum ;DDDDD (L)

wifeey
-steph

okay well there's really nothing good to say right now
cus i have feelings for nobody .. yet
so yeah how's your feeling wifey
found anyone yet and you kept that from me ;o ?

you should start by this sentence "well there's this guy.. "
& i'll be happy :D


iloveeyou soon is gunna be your birthday
you're goonna love your gift
let's hope (: